<3 <3 <3 Hi! :) im nineteen and a super sweet jerseyyy girl!! Im super fun to be around extremly out going and wild!! I love to drinkk. have a blastt with friends. partyy and sometimes going to work lolll :P i loveeee rhinos! and my fav meal is pizza and ice cold berr!!! i have two super cute kittens!! one named tubbies and the other suger lips! well thats prettyyy much me! plus you will learn more about me as i blogg! alsoo scroll over the picturess to learn more too!! enjoy!! :)
Watched &#8220;my neighbor totoro&#8221; tonight for the first time and fell in love! xD

Confession..

No one really knows I cut myself almost everyday, in places people cant see. People think I’m perfect on the outside and so extremely happy. But, if you stare deep into my eye you can see me begging to be saved by my knight in shining armor.

Cutest thing ever! it reminds me of tubbiez! xD
This is the most beautiful place I’ve ever seen. wannaa go there sooo bad!! :D

I fall for you every time

Why do I always let you do this to me! Why. I open myself up entirely to you every time just to get hurt. I believe all the bullshit you feed me… I believe the I love you’s and all the your so amazing’s. I believe all of it.. you make me feel so perfect and pretty every time! So like the stupid little girl I am.. I let you in! I let you in, thinking it will be different this time. Like I mean something. So I start trusting you and I fall for your cute smile and your funny jokes all over again, I even laugh at them when they completely suck! I hate how I let you start kissing me! Because you and I both no it won’t just stop at there! It never does! I hate how you tell me I’m beautiful after you take off all my clothes and start kissing the scars on my naked body. Because its been the only time in my life I’ve truly believed I WAS beautiful! I hate how I crave your warm rough hands running along the sides of my body and exploring every inch of it like its the first time your hands have ever touched me. Or how right before you start making love to me you do this pause.. that feels like an eternity even tho i no its only been a second. I get such bad butterfly and my heart feels like its going to explode!! It feels like your about to take my virginity even tho we’ve done this a hundred times. I love the way you make feel when you make love to me, I can’t express how perfect and right it feels. It let’s me slip away from everything and into pure ecstasy. But then regret slowly starts creeping in and filling up all this perfectness with pain. I’m no longer in my other world.. Im back in reality and just watching you put on your clothes not saying anything. Every single piece of clothing you put back on the more I hate myself and can feel my eyes start to fill up with hurt. I feel more stupid then ever.. and DISGUSTING as I just sit naked in my sheets watching you just gather your things not giving a fuck. I wanna just cut myself to feel something other then this pain and humiliation.. Because I’m the dumbass who truly thought you loved me. But the best part about my stupidity is that I thought you were actually making love to me this time…

Hurricane Irene off the coast of North Carolina.danmmm this is what is going to be hitting us in jerseyy.. ):

Let me be free from these scars.

ahhh (: can we have sex and then smoke a cigarette? please..? (:
pure happiness &lt;3